Needles go in. I go out. Into the void.
I detach from my co-ordinates … using the somersault method I developed as result of years of boredom in meditation. (If interested in what that is email me with subject line ‘summersault’).
I’m at my acupuncture session on Thursday 11.24 am, August 11th, 2022.
Today … something new. I probe into deep space and go far, far, further out than ever before. Could go further, but decide against it. Fear or just … whatever. Drift. Defrag. Explore.
First thought POPS in …
"My inner world is infinite".
A blank space. I can play with this or that or this or that.
CHOOSE an idea, a set piece, an action, a hat?
Second thought POPS in …
"When I open my eyes I'm at mercy of the illusion of a separate, material outer-landscape".
Out there, anything I see, hear, think or feel will trigger me into the yo-yo of stimulus/response. Action/reaction. Ou there, we are at the ‘mercy’ of the pin-ball machine of ‘reality’.
‘Mercy’ translates into … ‘entirely in the power of, subject to … from Latin ‘merces‘ wages, price’ … can be further translated in our context here as ‘the price we pay for choosing to allow the outside to dictate how we feel.
‘Mercy’ is close to ‘mercury’ which is a poison.
‘Mercy’ is also pity. The outside takes pity on us when we ‘buy in’ and think ‘out-there’ some kind of true, solid, ‘real’ world that imposes it’s will on us that we have to bend to, or worse, makes me believe I think I am choosing but I’m really reacting, on auto-pilot.
"IT bends to ME and ME is constructed in the inner plane?"
The Takeaway
I have two choices in this moment.
1.React to the outer world and live life as a pin ball in a pin ball machine.
2.Curate on the inner and allow, no force required, the outer to mirror my inner, which it has no choice but to do if the inner is clear, energized and certain.
Why? Cause there is nothing really out there. But we won’t go down that rabbit hole today. I mean you can … but I have to wrap this up.
Try to Remember
It’s closer than you think. So don’t think. DREAM.
Dream with gusto and when you open your eyes choose to perceive everything AS IF it is ON ITS WAY or LEADING TO or JUST STARTING TO line up with the dream.
Do not fear the word ‘dream’. We have been conditioned to use this powerful word to describe things we believe unlikely to happen. This is a trap. You have been programmed to believe that dreams have less validity and substance than so called ‘reality’ even when ‘reality’ has much less substance than a dream has. I understand why we do this, but it’s an unfortunate .. have we thought this through?
Final Thought
The very same day as this acupuncture insight, I read some Gurdjieff/Ouspensky/Nicolls and I read their thoughts on the external part of us as being the most mechanical, automatic and lowest side of us, like the basement of the house. In this ‘basement’ one can only understand in a limited way. In this ‘basement’ we are fast asleep as regards to ‘the work’.
YOU are constructed by you through the inner vision you hold of your self.
START OF TEST
Needles go in. I go out. Into the void.
I detach from my co-ordinates … using the somersault method I developed as result of years of boredom in meditation. (If interested in what that is email me with subject line ‘summersault’).
I’m at my acupuncture session on Thursday 11.24 am, August 11th, 2022.
Today … something new. I probe into deep space and go far, far, further out than ever before. Could go further, but decide against it. Fear or just … whatever. Drift. Defrag. Explore.
First thought POPS in …
[inlinetweet]”My inner world is infinite”.[/inlinetweet]
A blank space. I can play with this or that or this or that.
CHOOSE an idea, a set piece, an action, a hat?
Second thought POPS in …
[inlinetweet]”When I open my eyes I’m at mercy of the illusion of a separate, material outer-landscape”.[/inlinetweet]
Out there, anything I see, hear, think or feel will trigger me into the yo-yo of stimulus/response. Action/reaction. Ou there, we are at the ‘mercy’ of the pin-ball machine of ‘reality’.
‘Mercy’ translates into … ‘entirely in the power of, subject to … from Latin ‘merces‘ wages, price’ … can be further translated in our context here as ‘the price we pay for choosing to allow the outside to dictate how we feel.
‘Mercy’ is close to ‘mercury’ which is a poison.
‘Mercy’ is also pity. The outside takes pity on us when we ‘buy in’ and think ‘out-there’ some kind of true, solid, ‘real’ world that imposes it’s will on us that we have to bend to, or worse, makes me believe I think I am choosing but I’m really reacting, on auto-pilot.
[inlinetweet]”IT bends to ME and ME is constructed in the inner plane?”[/inlinetweet]
The Takeaway
I have two choices in this moment.
1.React to the outer world and live life as a pin ball in a pin ball machine.
2.Curate on the inner and allow, no force required, the outer to mirror my inner, which it has no choice but to do if the inner is clear, energized and certain.
Why? Cause there is nothing really out there. But we won’t go down that rabbit hole today. I mean you can … but I have to wrap this up.
Try to Remember
It’s closer than you think. So don’t think. DREAM.
Dream with gusto and when you open your eyes choose to perceive everything AS IF it is ON ITS WAY or LEADING TO or JUST STARTING TO line up with the dream.
Do not fear the word ‘dream’. We have been conditioned to use this powerful word to describe things we believe unlikely to happen. This is a trap. You have been programmed to believe that dreams have less validity and substance than so called ‘reality’ even when ‘reality’ has much less substance than a dream has. I understand why we do this, but it’s an unfortunate .. have we thought this through?
Final Thought
The very same day as this acupuncture insight, I read some Gurdjieff/Ouspensky/Nicolls and I read their thoughts on the external part of us as being the most mechanical, automatic and lowest side of us, like the basement of the house. In this ‘basement’ one can only understand in a limited way. In this ‘basement’ we are fast asleep as regards to ‘the work’.
YOU are constructed by you through the inner vision you hold of your self.